Nothing I wanna do

Have you ever been in a situation where you simply don't want to do anything?
You're hesitant to pay any attention
You wonder why you even woke up this morning
You don't like to talk with or laugh with people
You want to cry but you aren't sure if anything worths the tears
You stop doing things you used to love
You want to be forever silent and still
You lack the will to move and be jolly
You think that under the shadow is where you are supposed to be
You refuse and hate to see the bright side of everything
You don't care your own or other people's well being
You continuously feel and are cold
You sit and stare blankly
You shower and stare blankly
You brush your teeth and stare blankly
You turn on your tv and stare blankly
If you could, you want to tear off every single happy pages of your life
Burn them down to ashes, and yet still stare blankly
You hear and sense nothing
You are afraid and angry all at the same time
You just want to sleep
Because you know your dream is the only place you can smile sincerely
Where you can do random things just because you can
Where you can do everything without having to have a reason
it's the only part of your life left in which you can do every single things by your own rules