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lunes, marzo 02, 2009

The day I hate almost everything

I don't usually like to hate things,
hatred's a burden pretty much,
Except for things that are easily stupid beyond imagination or simply cruel or in any forms of injustice (additionally phishing in the last post and those peeps who drive extraordinarily slow on the road, also fall into the hated category)

Today, though, I simply hate almost everything
However, let's start the post with the "almost" part, being positive to start things
I finished the 5-components mixture Thermo calculation, within 2.5 hours, by Excel only (no flashy chem softwares)
Pretty happy and proud about it... Coz the task giver actually joked "try giving me the answer in 1.5 hour" So hey, it's not really that bad. I thought it's a 1-2 days kinda task.
Also the smiling Noodles & Co employee... He's nice. I think he knows I always come for the Japanese Pan Noodle. Tastes really good.
Work was otherwise pretty good. The 6.5 hours left were spent doing meeting, and other necessary things.

Unfortunately those are the only things that I don't hate today.
The fact that I have to clean up my house slightly annoys me. But that's fine. I messed up, I clean. No genius maths here.
I hate my dream last night. It was too weird. The fact that I dreamed of it is painfully annoying. The fact that I cannot tell anybody about the details of the dream adds the torture, but not by much.
I'm unhappy (I guess it's not hate) that my colleague is sick. Kinda feel sad actually for him. Sincerely wish him soon recovery.
I hate that I was not in the full mode of working today. The only thing I wanted to do was sleeping at home. I wanted to do nothing. Of course I couldn't do that. But this with the point above add up to a bad working atmosphere.
As I wrote above, I hate that person constantly driving 15 mph in 30 mph zone. DUDE, ARE YOU SLEEPING THERE??!?!
I hate things that much I don't wanna talk to anybody today, or also maybe tomorrow, who knows? If I could, I would definitely prefer sleeping all day tomorrow, too.
I hate that I literally didn't smile the whole day, not even to the Noodles & Co guy who is very kind and who I usually without hesitant smile back to. All I have is anger. Period.

I don't think I'm that kind of person who needs to go to anger management program. I'm that person who usually easily smiles and laughs and enjoys life. I don't usually get feedbacks as an impatient person. I did in fact get several feedbacks from peeps that say that they are happy to find me as one of the very few people who can stand them long enough no matter how annoying they can be sometimes.

Sigh... Maybe currently I just need time and my own space, until indefinite time.