Tersiksa!
Beberapa hari terakhir ini tiap malem terserang insomnia... Ga bisa tidur.
Mulai rebahan jam 10, gw liat jam 12 sekian gw masi bangun... 2 jam ga ngapa2in, nungguin tidur doank. Jam 6 dah musti bangun lagi buat kerja.
Yang parah : Baru go to bed jam 12... Jam 1:32 masi belom tidur (damn it dah jam stenga 2, besok kerja overtime lagi!). Jam 5 kebangun gara2 anjing tetangga menggonggong dengan leluasanya... lama... Dia berenti ngegonggong, lama baru bisa tidur lagi. Mimpi terakhir ga pleasant banget, tau2 jam 6 alarm gw dah bunyi lagi. Next day? Like hell. Tepar.
Setelah beberapa hari begini terus, gw sering ngerasa badan tiba2 dingin...
Terus ada yang baru lagi : Kalo bangun dari tidur terlalu cepet, kepala pusing... nguing nguing... Ini emank mayan sering. (Kata orang darah rendah...) Tapi nguing2 itu berlanjut terus seharian, kayanya jalan ga lurus... Apa gw mulai terserang vertigo juga? *jadi teringat si Blake di summer lab* Mana kemaren gw musti naek2 tangga vertikal lagi di plant... Dang it! Kemaren2 ini gw hampir ga bisa turun tangga...
I HATE MY LIFE BEING MISERABLE!!
Choices of solution :
1. Obat tidur biar bisa knocked out and wake up with enough sleep (tapi takut tergantung kalo tiap ari gw ga bisa tidur)
2. Banyakin makan makanan Cina (ada MSG biar ngantuk), tapi ga sehat gila!
3. Nyape2in badan seperti contohnya berolahraga ato nyikat WC sebelom tidur (ga juga sih, tiredness is not a factor, karena tiap pulang kerja badan dah cape banget tapi tetep ga bisa tidur).
4. Piara anjing juga biar kalo anjing sebelah rese bisa diaduin (ga nyambung... *sorry*). Well I mean mgkn gw jadi less stressful kalo ada 'maenan' (ato malah makin stress ngurusinnya?).
5. Ngelarin semua pikiran gw biar tenang (some problems don't just go away like that, though we put our all in 'em).
6. Shopping mengurangi stress? (Duit abis juga stress)
7. Make sure Smirnoff is always in the refrigerator so whenever having trouble with sleeping, can just grab one and sleep
8. Dengerin musik yang tenang pas mo tidur? (Gw dah coba malah ga bisa tidur!)
9. Pulang ke Madison ketemu Manda dan teman2 dan nonton Badgers... (I will do this in 6 days! YEAH! But within these 6 days, how do I get enough sleep?)
10. Maen piano sampe cape! (Yeah I think I should do this, releasing stress). I'll definitely do it in Madison.
11. Let my head burst out... (definitely not a solution)
12. Nangis biar gampang tidur (tapi ga bisa, dan tiap ari ke kantor mata bengkak is not a good idea. It's not a good thing to let my coworkers think most Asians get their eyes narrower and narrower each day, for some strange reasons they don't know what)
13. Mindain tempat tidur gw, mgkn feng shui nya ga bagus... (WTH?! I don't even believe I just wrote that...)
14. Balik lagi ke gereja secara teratur (gw menyesal ini pilihan ke 14 bukan ke 1... Well mgkn juga, I need peace of mind)
15. All of the above (dah kaya Multiple Choice)
Any other suggestions?
Anyway, aside from these things above,
Sebenernya gw ga mau, kalo tiba2 ada something fatal terjadi sama gw skrg (yah moga2 aje ga), the last feeling I remember in my last seconds alive is being sad and depressed. Last things I remember will be blocking love outta my life, or being away from people who really care about me, or feeling self-polluted with regrets. No, I'm not being suicidal, don't get me wrong. I just hate seeing this as a possibility. Can't live this way.
Mulai rebahan jam 10, gw liat jam 12 sekian gw masi bangun... 2 jam ga ngapa2in, nungguin tidur doank. Jam 6 dah musti bangun lagi buat kerja.
Yang parah : Baru go to bed jam 12... Jam 1:32 masi belom tidur (damn it dah jam stenga 2, besok kerja overtime lagi!). Jam 5 kebangun gara2 anjing tetangga menggonggong dengan leluasanya... lama... Dia berenti ngegonggong, lama baru bisa tidur lagi. Mimpi terakhir ga pleasant banget, tau2 jam 6 alarm gw dah bunyi lagi. Next day? Like hell. Tepar.
Setelah beberapa hari begini terus, gw sering ngerasa badan tiba2 dingin...
Terus ada yang baru lagi : Kalo bangun dari tidur terlalu cepet, kepala pusing... nguing nguing... Ini emank mayan sering. (Kata orang darah rendah...) Tapi nguing2 itu berlanjut terus seharian, kayanya jalan ga lurus... Apa gw mulai terserang vertigo juga? *jadi teringat si Blake di summer lab* Mana kemaren gw musti naek2 tangga vertikal lagi di plant... Dang it! Kemaren2 ini gw hampir ga bisa turun tangga...
I HATE MY LIFE BEING MISERABLE!!
Choices of solution :
1. Obat tidur biar bisa knocked out and wake up with enough sleep (tapi takut tergantung kalo tiap ari gw ga bisa tidur)
2. Banyakin makan makanan Cina (ada MSG biar ngantuk), tapi ga sehat gila!
3. Nyape2in badan seperti contohnya berolahraga ato nyikat WC sebelom tidur (ga juga sih, tiredness is not a factor, karena tiap pulang kerja badan dah cape banget tapi tetep ga bisa tidur).
4. Piara anjing juga biar kalo anjing sebelah rese bisa diaduin (ga nyambung... *sorry*). Well I mean mgkn gw jadi less stressful kalo ada 'maenan' (ato malah makin stress ngurusinnya?).
5. Ngelarin semua pikiran gw biar tenang (some problems don't just go away like that, though we put our all in 'em).
6. Shopping mengurangi stress? (Duit abis juga stress)
7. Make sure Smirnoff is always in the refrigerator so whenever having trouble with sleeping, can just grab one and sleep
8. Dengerin musik yang tenang pas mo tidur? (Gw dah coba malah ga bisa tidur!)
9. Pulang ke Madison ketemu Manda dan teman2 dan nonton Badgers... (I will do this in 6 days! YEAH! But within these 6 days, how do I get enough sleep?)
10. Maen piano sampe cape! (Yeah I think I should do this, releasing stress). I'll definitely do it in Madison.
11. Let my head burst out... (definitely not a solution)
12. Nangis biar gampang tidur (tapi ga bisa, dan tiap ari ke kantor mata bengkak is not a good idea. It's not a good thing to let my coworkers think most Asians get their eyes narrower and narrower each day, for some strange reasons they don't know what)
13. Mindain tempat tidur gw, mgkn feng shui nya ga bagus... (WTH?! I don't even believe I just wrote that...)
14. Balik lagi ke gereja secara teratur (gw menyesal ini pilihan ke 14 bukan ke 1... Well mgkn juga, I need peace of mind)
15. All of the above (dah kaya Multiple Choice)
Any other suggestions?
Anyway, aside from these things above,
Sebenernya gw ga mau, kalo tiba2 ada something fatal terjadi sama gw skrg (yah moga2 aje ga), the last feeling I remember in my last seconds alive is being sad and depressed. Last things I remember will be blocking love outta my life, or being away from people who really care about me, or feeling self-polluted with regrets. No, I'm not being suicidal, don't get me wrong. I just hate seeing this as a possibility. Can't live this way.
posted by siduahuruf @ 1:28 p. m.
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