Ini ditulis tanggal 13 Maret 2006

Indianapolis, IN

Hari ini tepat stenga taon. Gw juga ga gitu sadar sampe gw mikir2 lagi...
Too many things reminded me of him today. Just too many. Every song, every story, every thought...
I still miss him today, like any other days, but just more and more as time goes.

Terakhir kali gw ke state ini dulu, I left him behind.
Today, I don't even have the chance to ask him to come along.
Sedih banget... Just cannot do anything but crying.

I know there's nothing that would cheer me up because he means like nothing else to me. He's unique. I wish he were here, that's my only thought.

Muter lagi semua kejadian yang terjadi setenga taon lalu, dari awal sampe saat dimana yang gw inget cuma luapan aer mata dimana2 (because then I'm too busy to cry to even think of anything else).
In half a year, most things change, but that I miss him will always be the same.

Nothing will beat these...
The feeling of throwing out each lyric (we once sang together) off my lips now, while remembering each's history.
The feeling of imagining that he were with me. I would have as much as the whole world to tell , to listen from and share with him.
The feeling of waking him up and end up cuddling with him in the morning. (I will never forget this one, and I do miss having such feeling.)
The feeling of running my index finger on his face, again, to wake him up.
and at last (but really, not least)
The crying thing because I lost some things that I believe are too beautiful, that I don't even dare to imagine again how they make me feel.

Special thx to Z because of listening when I was crying alone in the phone, in a far far away place, while feeling desperately sad and hopeless. This is what I 'told' him : Adakah waktu yang tak terbatas buat gw untuk ngerasa bahagia?


"Semusim, Telah kulalui, Telah kulewati tanpa dirimu, Tetapi bayang wajahmu, Masih tersimpan di hati.." Semusim by Marcel