Faith or His way?

Some people say, "it's good to always keep yer faith, put yer head up high." Well I think that it might be true, it's good to have something to hold on to. But what if that God has conditioned something so that my faith becomes different pathway to His?

The absence of understanding His plan and my current knowledge might say that keeping my faith for these couple of months doesn't match His want. But as humans have free will, I take my right to keep whatever I want, and with courage I can say that I will still be on my selected pathway as long as I like. Never having had a tiny small thought about changin it so far, I am more loyal to it as time progresses. If there is any good thing about keeping this faith, I can say that it is called patience, to learn that things not always go as we hope they do.

Don't I want to follow the pathway He has given? Sometimes the situation is clear enough that I was supposed to not remember or help me be reminded, coz everytime I do, there's a small invisible teardrop in my heart and it 's uncomfortable, but the problem is I love every single difficulties it gets me. Remembering keeps me away from His way, too, but I guess I'm turning into that 1 sheep that gotten lost and separated from the others; my faith is important.

Learning to be not always satisfied
Learning to be happy and ignore some resistance when I have to,
Learning to not always regret,
Learning to stop thinking crazily because I have to realize things are just the way they are,
Learning to look for and see that very thin silver lining in dark clouds,
Learning to stand up again,
Learning to let heart slowly recover and smile again when the time comes (believe me, it will feel great then),
Learning not to let time wear out our patience.

Will it be harder to you then? Hahahaha, has anyone told you that life would be easy? Nu-oh!!

Difficult is not the word anymore; it's so old fashioned. I'm accustomed to it already. The heap words now are complicated, foolish but challenging.

Will it be a sin, not to follow the 'supposed to be'? Well, I guess lying and hatred are worse than this. I would spell this whole thing as an indefinite length of detour of His way, which hopefully later will merge somehow.

P.S :
Sorry if it is hard to be understood, but I guess some people would correctly guess the meaning.
Not sorry if you think it's so cheesy, coz then maybe some people are just not as wholy people as they are supposed to; they don't have hearts; therefore the problem are theirs.