What I can do

This is not the mistyped title of one of the Corrs' songs. This is a statement.

Today, I did something I would never do in my nature : watching a movie with war based background. Kalo gw inget2 lagi juga kayanya gw ga bisa percaya, hahahaha... Sampe skrg gw masi bingung kenapa adik gw suka Band of Brothers. Anyways, not the point of the story that war movies and I don't match . I havta admit, I watch this movie not from my own willingness.

This person I'm gonna discuss is the 'motivation' in the history of my decission watching this movie. He's always ribut wanna watch the movie, which I know very well why. I think he enjoys every minute of it. Why did I watch anyways?

Lately I've been in pain. I could even put 'geboren einsam zu sein' in my MSN nickname. Well, so not in a happy mood, eh? This person, when everybody is away, he's there to listen, even when I'm terribly sad or when I'm just so cerewet because I don't have anything to do. I disturbed him for hours in the middle of the nite just to talk to. Anyways he knows if he doesn't do it I would probably cry (hehehe)... This also leads to the fact that I'm one of the factors why his cellphone battery is out of voltage. He keeps listening to me no matter how many times I whine about Kolek not being here and I miss him so much or my bro who already has his true siz with him. Well, now I just realize that he never complains on that I never be thankful for how nice it is to still have him here. Never see whatever is close to you already, eh? That might be true... He helped me thru things. He also doesn't complain that I need a hug everynite, just to know at least someone still cares for me. He even sat there and listen (and of course reading the book he likes that just arrived) in the futon while I just need someone to share my Girl From Ipanema I just found again. Anyways, I can't find anybody else who would listen and maybe understands.

There I was watching a good movie (which helps me realize, even if it was just for tiny flash of time, why he likes war thingies so much) with one of my favorite actor (Benjamin Bratt). Suddenly, I realize, this is nothing compared to what he's done for me. Well I know he'll still be OK if he watches it alone, but at least I wanna be there and try to understand what he likes so much, after all he did trying to listen and understand what I've been through.

I would say thank you.