I decided!

Akhirnya, dari mikir berlama2, ga abis2, ada satu hal yang tiba2 ngebuat gw sadar, bantuin gw decide something. There's something I really want, and I am no longer blind nor afraid to pursue it. I wanna catch my dream before it goes away and leaves me even lonelier. Some things are important, but some other things cannot demand explanations and further thoughts. I guess what I'm doing is just the second one. Maybe I shall hide no more. I wanna stop not being myself, stop hurting myself, stop lying to others and myself. I will take this very chance before it's too late.
I might look so immature, but at least this is what I WANNA do, and it's the only way to reduce the regret if things don't go as I wish. I'll still take some lesson from experiences, no worries. Pray that this is the rightmost thing to do for me.