Values I value
Dah lama gw ga ngebahas ttg cinta. Benar, kadang akhir2 ini emank gw tulis a bit here and there ttg love life gw, tapi gw ga pernah ngebahas topik ini. Later you'll know why.
Mr. Z : Eloe suka cowo yang gimana?
gw : ehm... *mikir* Yang ga boong, yang loyal, yang dewasa... the list goes on and it can't be more unimportant for this post.
Mr. Z : No, you answered the question properly. Now try to just answer it, no thinking!
gw : ??!?!
Mr. Z : Leaving all the mask behind, cowo yang kaya gimana yang attract eloe?
gw : ...
Mr. Z : Women, they answer the question while thinking what are the politically correct answer for the question. You know what I mean.
gw : *He didn't have to say it twice, it stroke me. Saat itu gw cuma bisa diem, lalu berpikir that he's thinkin beyond me. Well what can I say, he's a male and he's so blatant and practical. Added to that, he's a very close friend of mine, that makes our conversation more open. And lastly, I was trully honored that he expects me to be sophisticated enough (and a good friend enough) to not just answer him with the 'supposed to be' answer.*
Gw benci pembohong, yet gw pernah suka orang yang bohongin gw.
Gw benci orang yang ga loyal, yet gw pernah suka orang yang ga setia.
So what's wrong here? Padahal itu 2 values yang (according to my first answer) harusnya the biggest no-no buat gw. Mana yang ga jujur? Jawaban gw yang proper itu ato perasaan gw? Well I know which one.
Apa yang attract gw itu bukan sesuatu yang harus dipikirin, tapi sesuatu yang dirasain.
Lately gw sendiri ga bisa jawab specifically pertanyaan itu lagi, dan tiap kali ditanyain pasti keinget Mr. Z. Skrg2 ini kalo ditanyain gitu, gw jawab "orang yang aneh". Weird but unique, something in him different enough that I like what he has, which I don't necessarily know why. Sometimes it can be something bad but plain challenging, sometimes it's something good. I never know, and the guessin game begins. Ini jawaban yang subtle, but lately for this case I love subtlety more than certainty. Dan jawaban gw ini gw rasa jujur, bukan jawaban yang benar. Terlalu sering tertarik sama orang yang aneh, that Amanda one time bilang ke gw "jangan sampe tertarik sama narapidana cuma gara2 dia aneh." Than I replied to her "if one time that happens, you my sister, should be the first one to hurry and take me to monastery so that I can become a nun! Lol!" Gw sendiri jawab itu otomatis, ga mikir2. Well itu sebenernya artinya gw tau gw bisa mikir apa yang salah dan benar. Tertarik sama narapidana itu contoh ekstrim, tapi gw tau itu salah, lalu gw bilang mendingan gw jadi suster (not to offend anybody dalam penulisan post ini, that's not my intention).
Sigh...
I've gotten people coming to me and say "Jatuh cinta itu ga salah. Eloe ga bisa milih." ato "Eloe bukan siapa2 untuk bisa memilih eloe mau jatuh cinta ke siapa. You are not that great." ato statement2 serupa. Tapi kadang2 orang ga gitu sadar apa yang dia bilang itu so literal yet so WIIIIIIIDDEEEEEEEEEEE... Ga bisa milih untuk jatuh cinta ke siapa, itu artinya "bukan ga bisa milih untuk memilih mencoba suka sama orang yang sebaiknya disuka". That's why in that statement ada kata "jatuh". "Jatuh", something not expected.
Contoh :
Proper answer : Gw ga suka gamer, karena dia pasti musti bagi waktu antara gamenya sama gw. Dan kemungkinan besar pasti dia maeeeennn terus. Ga dewasa banget, lagi. Mgkn dia kurang jago ngadepin real life materials.
Fact : I've been there, done that. "jatuh" without being able to choose. He's too unique not to like. Solely in the purpose of the post, I find it unnecessary to mention things in him that attract me. But anyway, to my surprise, I won the time management thing to his games.
So yeaah, gw dah males ngebahas ttg topik "cinta" lagi akhir2 ini, (diluar mengeluh biasanya, lol...), karena gw milih nulis apa yang dialami, sometimes ga harus dimengerti dan ga harus politically correct. What's so good about discussing a theory that out of 10 experiments it's only good for 2? I experiment, I don't postulate. Wanna see what I'm gonna come out with and there I treasure it. Though in experimenting things can always go wrong, and I take it as a consequence. Sedih itu humane. In the other hand, kalo ga experiment enough, we'll never know. Never know people, never know myself.
Kalo gw sama orang yang salah terus2an? It's not like I intend to. What's so right about Mr. Right if everybody can be like him? Wait and be patient. "Semper Fidelis" are very beautiful words (credit goes to Hackbridge for introducing me). Yet if I don't try and experiment, I can say bye to findin Mr. Right. Try to be wiser in experimenting? Again, who am I to be able to choose to not fall? That honor is waaaaay beyond me. Hahahaha... This is funny, but really, even God still loves us no matter how bad we are.
Until now, I feel grateful to people yang bisa dapetin orang yang sesuai sama valuenya, yand sekaligus dia cintai. Good for them and I'm happy for them. Me? I can say I'm not that lucky yet. But keep hoping. I'm still fabulously young anyway! I can accept that life is not like Cinderella or any other Disney cartoons, it's more like Carrie's in Sex and the City. Nothing so good and real is that easy. Keep tryin ;) Ga perlu takut ga ngikutin values I value dan dengerin hati gw. Kadang2 hati gw juga cape ga didengerin sama gw.
But anyway gw pengen kasi credit juga very very good friends yang ada di situ buat eloe saat mereka tau eloe salah dan kasi tau eloe. People with such friends are one of the luckiests. So, for "friends who don't let friends date a jerk", you're my treasure who try to keep me safe. The intention is never wrong and so beautiful. THANK YOU.
Mr. Z : Eloe suka cowo yang gimana?
gw : ehm... *mikir* Yang ga boong, yang loyal, yang dewasa... the list goes on and it can't be more unimportant for this post.
Mr. Z : No, you answered the question properly. Now try to just answer it, no thinking!
gw : ??!?!
Mr. Z : Leaving all the mask behind, cowo yang kaya gimana yang attract eloe?
gw : ...
Mr. Z : Women, they answer the question while thinking what are the politically correct answer for the question. You know what I mean.
gw : *He didn't have to say it twice, it stroke me. Saat itu gw cuma bisa diem, lalu berpikir that he's thinkin beyond me. Well what can I say, he's a male and he's so blatant and practical. Added to that, he's a very close friend of mine, that makes our conversation more open. And lastly, I was trully honored that he expects me to be sophisticated enough (and a good friend enough) to not just answer him with the 'supposed to be' answer.*
Gw benci pembohong, yet gw pernah suka orang yang bohongin gw.
Gw benci orang yang ga loyal, yet gw pernah suka orang yang ga setia.
So what's wrong here? Padahal itu 2 values yang (according to my first answer) harusnya the biggest no-no buat gw. Mana yang ga jujur? Jawaban gw yang proper itu ato perasaan gw? Well I know which one.
Apa yang attract gw itu bukan sesuatu yang harus dipikirin, tapi sesuatu yang dirasain.
Lately gw sendiri ga bisa jawab specifically pertanyaan itu lagi, dan tiap kali ditanyain pasti keinget Mr. Z. Skrg2 ini kalo ditanyain gitu, gw jawab "orang yang aneh". Weird but unique, something in him different enough that I like what he has, which I don't necessarily know why. Sometimes it can be something bad but plain challenging, sometimes it's something good. I never know, and the guessin game begins. Ini jawaban yang subtle, but lately for this case I love subtlety more than certainty. Dan jawaban gw ini gw rasa jujur, bukan jawaban yang benar. Terlalu sering tertarik sama orang yang aneh, that Amanda one time bilang ke gw "jangan sampe tertarik sama narapidana cuma gara2 dia aneh." Than I replied to her "if one time that happens, you my sister, should be the first one to hurry and take me to monastery so that I can become a nun! Lol!" Gw sendiri jawab itu otomatis, ga mikir2. Well itu sebenernya artinya gw tau gw bisa mikir apa yang salah dan benar. Tertarik sama narapidana itu contoh ekstrim, tapi gw tau itu salah, lalu gw bilang mendingan gw jadi suster (not to offend anybody dalam penulisan post ini, that's not my intention).
Sigh...
I've gotten people coming to me and say "Jatuh cinta itu ga salah. Eloe ga bisa milih." ato "Eloe bukan siapa2 untuk bisa memilih eloe mau jatuh cinta ke siapa. You are not that great." ato statement2 serupa. Tapi kadang2 orang ga gitu sadar apa yang dia bilang itu so literal yet so WIIIIIIIDDEEEEEEEEEEE... Ga bisa milih untuk jatuh cinta ke siapa, itu artinya "bukan ga bisa milih untuk memilih mencoba suka sama orang yang sebaiknya disuka". That's why in that statement ada kata "jatuh". "Jatuh", something not expected.
Contoh :
Proper answer : Gw ga suka gamer, karena dia pasti musti bagi waktu antara gamenya sama gw. Dan kemungkinan besar pasti dia maeeeennn terus. Ga dewasa banget, lagi. Mgkn dia kurang jago ngadepin real life materials.
Fact : I've been there, done that. "jatuh" without being able to choose. He's too unique not to like. Solely in the purpose of the post, I find it unnecessary to mention things in him that attract me. But anyway, to my surprise, I won the time management thing to his games.
So yeaah, gw dah males ngebahas ttg topik "cinta" lagi akhir2 ini, (diluar mengeluh biasanya, lol...), karena gw milih nulis apa yang dialami, sometimes ga harus dimengerti dan ga harus politically correct. What's so good about discussing a theory that out of 10 experiments it's only good for 2? I experiment, I don't postulate. Wanna see what I'm gonna come out with and there I treasure it. Though in experimenting things can always go wrong, and I take it as a consequence. Sedih itu humane. In the other hand, kalo ga experiment enough, we'll never know. Never know people, never know myself.
Kalo gw sama orang yang salah terus2an? It's not like I intend to. What's so right about Mr. Right if everybody can be like him? Wait and be patient. "Semper Fidelis" are very beautiful words (credit goes to Hackbridge for introducing me). Yet if I don't try and experiment, I can say bye to findin Mr. Right. Try to be wiser in experimenting? Again, who am I to be able to choose to not fall? That honor is waaaaay beyond me. Hahahaha... This is funny, but really, even God still loves us no matter how bad we are.
Until now, I feel grateful to people yang bisa dapetin orang yang sesuai sama valuenya, yand sekaligus dia cintai. Good for them and I'm happy for them. Me? I can say I'm not that lucky yet. But keep hoping. I'm still fabulously young anyway! I can accept that life is not like Cinderella or any other Disney cartoons, it's more like Carrie's in Sex and the City. Nothing so good and real is that easy. Keep tryin ;) Ga perlu takut ga ngikutin values I value dan dengerin hati gw. Kadang2 hati gw juga cape ga didengerin sama gw.
But anyway gw pengen kasi credit juga very very good friends yang ada di situ buat eloe saat mereka tau eloe salah dan kasi tau eloe. People with such friends are one of the luckiests. So, for "friends who don't let friends date a jerk", you're my treasure who try to keep me safe. The intention is never wrong and so beautiful. THANK YOU.
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